Six months ago you came screaming into this world and were placed on my chest. My life began with your first breath.
“Hi baby.” Your eyes met mine. I touched your face, marveled at ten perfect fingers and ten tiny toes. I had prayed for you, waited for you, and finally you were here. In that moment my life was changed forever.
Being your mom is everything that I wanted and nothing that I expected. I knew that there would be sleepless nights, that we would have to budget for daycare. I didn’t know how much I would worry, especially that first night! Your dad and I hardly slept; we were too busy watching to make sure you were still breathing. Another thing I was unprepared for was the strength of my love for you. It is like nothing I have ever felt before, this love between mother and child. It is deeper than any ocean, bigger than the largest mountain, all encompassing and all consuming.
A lot has changed since your birthday, my sweet boy. Gone is the sleepy newborn, content to snuggle for hours on my chest. Now you are a smart, inquisitive little boy. You are so curious; everything about this world excites you. Your dogs, the feeling of Daddy’s whiskers under your fingers, the taste of sweet bananas on your tongue… There is nothing I love more than seeing you take joy in all that is around you. I see life through fresh eyes, your eyes, and it is beautiful.
Happy half-birthday, Alec. Six short months, and yet I cannot remember my life without you. I look forward to the future and all of the firsts yet to come. Your first Thanksgiving and Christmas, your first word, first steps. I take joy in watching you change and grow.
I love you. Today. Tomorrow. Always.